The Sabbath

Sunday, February 23, 2009 12:00 A.M. was the beginning of my fast and to say the least, it was beautiful. I started with prayer, most of it was juz praise. N I really juz broke down wut I wanted from this fast. I want 2 rebuild that relationship wit GOD, I want 2 b able 2 thoroughly hear His voice n feel His presence. I wanna purify mah soul not only so I can become more spiritually strong, but physically strong. I basically juz gave mahself 2 GOD and trust him wholeheartedly that he's gunna make it happen 4 m3. So I told mah mom about it n of course she's supportive, I told Amara n her boyfriend Chris. They're supportive 2. Lol tha 1st thing Amara asked m3 when I said I was fasting was, "Sooo that means no more weed?" Haha I thought was hilarious. I told Alex, my sarrogant mother, she supported m3 2. But the 1 response from the 1 person I didn't expect was from this guy I'm seriously talkin 2 named Royal. He didn't really understand the extremes n the strictness of mah fast which really upset m3. Last nite in mah prayer I expressed 2 GOD that I wasn't sure if he was for m3 and I asked 4 another sign n his reaction was enuff 4 m3 2 bounce. But once I communicated that he tried 2 become understanding. But I'm still unbalanced when it comes 2 him. Idk if iz juz cuz I'm like that wit every dude or if iz cuz GOD's callin out 2 m3. Whatever it is tho I need some answers, whether it be from you guys or from Him. But yeah I'm writing this in tha car, juz left the Beverly Hills Hotel n saw Hilary Duff n some BOMB ass-prin shoes lol. Iz still kinda early so lets see how this day plays out